Christmas will never be the same without you! All I think about at Christmas is you,and how you made every Christmas happy, special and loving. I loved the run up to Christmas, watching you decorate YOUR tree, while drinking Baileys and wrapping the girls in tinsel. The huge event that was your Christmas dinner, your home made stuffing, chesnuts (which used to blow up in the oven, sounded like a drive by) lol brussels with bacon, carrots in glaze. The monster that was your Turkey, how many times did you over estimate how much Turkey we could eat? :) or duck, or ham anyone would think we had company for Christmas dinner! but it was just us in our bubble :)Death trap soup, the lottery our children used to take each time they ate it, whether they would choke on a bone or not! lol I love thinking of christmas wrapping, when you would do the majority because you said I did a crap job! and if you want a job done right just do it yourself lol or you holding me up so we could put our snowmen on the top of the tree. I miss everything about you! I'll miss the tourment that you put our kids through in making them wait to open their presents, and I know they will miss it too. And as much as you would spoil me,and make me wait to open my presents, what I'll miss most is watching your face light up when they, or I opened something that you couldnt wait for us to have, and your eyes filled with tears. You were such a precious soul, so kind, funny loving moody sexy :) I can honestly say with all my heart ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU WAYNE AND CHRISTMAS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME, NEITHER WILL ANY OTHER DAY OF THE YEAR. YOU ALWAYS MADE ME FEEL SPECIAL AND LOVED AND FOR THAT I WILL BE FOREVER GRATEFUL. I WISH YOU KNEW HOW MUCH I MISS YOU, I KNOW YOU KNEW HOW MUCH I LOVED YOU, BUT YOU WILL NEVER KNOW HOW DEVESTATED I FEEL INSIDE AND LONELY WITHOUT YOU. YOU WERE MY WORLD, MY BEST FRIEND, AND I WILL LOVE AND MISS YOU ALWAYS XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX